R.I.P. Michael Jackson

first and foremost: the title says it all.

on a lighter note, i just wanted to update you guys on my summer. so, i've been doing what i've been wanting lately, and that's chillen with my homies! the thing is, im STILL not doing it as much. idk if its all asian parents but my parents are definitely STRICT. they almost NEVER let me out, so it came as a surprise when they actually let me, lol. but anyhow, yes. i've been out and about with my friends more often. living my teenage life! wooohooo! hah.

i also JUST finished Driver's Ed. this past friday and got a 92% on the written final, yay! now, my in-car test is the last week of July so i wont even be able to get my license until August, but blah. lol.

sooo, i've been dying to get my hands on some new China Glaze polishes:

In Lime Light - it's kind of an obnoxious NEON green but i like it for summer :)

For Audrey (of course, lol) - i just wanted to see what the hype was about, lol.

Spontaneous - this looks like a pretty purple, & i need a pretty purple for summerr :)

these were based on the pictures shown at SallyBeauty.com so check them outt. i will be stopping by my local Sally's to pick these up, fer sure :)

happy father's day!

hello everyone, and happy father's day!

i hope you all have something nice to do for your daddies out thurr. my mom and i decided to take my dad out to one of those japanese restaurants where they cook the shit in front of you, like Sakura for instance! i thought that would be fun (if he doesnt get called in to work tonight, ugh)

anyhow, due to the special occasion, i decided to amp up my look a bit. now, theres no foundation on my skin, just highlighter, blush and a little finishing dust so BEWARE - it may be a scary sight, lol. buttt, i decided to do like a neutral, yet smoky kind of loook. my eyes are small so i cant really do much with them, lol.

PRODUCTS USED:
Eyes:
Urban Decay Primer Potion
EDM "Golden Globe Eye Palette":
-Gold used with MAC FIX+ for lid
-Brown used with MAC+ for crease
CS 88 Matte Palette:
-the 2nd darkest shade for the outer V
MAC MSF in Soft and Gentle for Brow Highlight
Sephora mini eyeliner pencil in black
Wet n' Wild Kohl eyeliner in White for waterline
Estee Lauder "Sumptuous" mascara

Face:
MAC MSF in Soft and Gentle for Highlights
EDM "Email Me" blush
EDM "Natural Reflections Light" for finishing powder
MAC FIX+

Lips:
NIVEA "a kiss of moisture" lip balm

i also have something else for yaa, i took a picture of me in the outfit i plan on wearing tonight. i wanted to keep it casual, but kinda flyy, ya know? haha, well i tried to atleast, lol. my hairs everywhere cause i got out the shower and im letting it air dry - im thinking about straightening it today, hmm... i'm short and stubby looking, sorry. lol

happy hump day!

itss wednesday, everyone!

that means, 2 more school days of this week! wooohooo! buttt, i do have my Algebra 2 & Biology finals on Thursday and Friday which is kind of crappy. funny thing is, i suck in both of those classes! my parents checked my grades and saw that i had a C in those two classes (79.2% in Bio & 77% in A2) and are debating on whether or not they'll let me go to my friend, Hannah's, sweet sixteen party. fucking bummer, dude. :( now the pressure's ON to pass those exams because they can potentially give me a B! I NEED THAT B, DAMNIT! haha

well, i talked to my counselor today about a few schedule changes that i was trying to make. since i am absolutely HORRIBLE at math, i decided to drop my Honors Chemistry class i was going to take next year and take AP Environmental Science instead. after all, im much more interested in the environment than in doing chemical equations, ew. but i have 2 more slots available for dropping classes but there's sooo many i regret takingg! :/

i also have my Spanish 2 final next monday. i'm HOPING that wont be too hard because i pretty much know what im doing - pretty much, lol. ANDD i start my first day of Driver's Ed. that same monday after schoool! i'm nervous, and excited for that, haha.

so, lately, ive been OBSESSED with candles and i can't figure out why. i mean at first i thought it was because it made my room smell greaat (my room usually smells gross 'cause my dogs sleeps in my room) but now, i light that shit up once im in my room. idk, i guess its just the relaxed feeling i get from it. especially in a time of final exams, ughh.

well, i just needed to talk to someone soo that's why i wrote all this here, in my cyber journal! haha

1 mile down!

heyyy, so on to another fitness chat:

i just finished a 2.270mile run about 10 minutes ago. i spent about 30 minutes doing so but i honestly don't care, lol. i completed a mile run at 5.5. mph in about 11:30 mins. so yeah, you might think that's crap but thats actually my best mile time, EVER. before it was about 13:25 back in my freshman year. i was the second to last that time, surprisingly. lol. after my mile, i just jogged and walked the rest of the miles until i reached my 30 min. mark. something strange: during that run, i was EXHAUSTED. i was like, out of breath, weezing, i could barely get my legs moving the whole time. buttt, once i was done, i was completely fine! hah! a part of me was telling me that i should stop, and that i need to rest. another part was telling me "BITCH, GET THE FUCK ON!" haha, more like: if you don't challenge your body, you wont get the results you want. so, my work-outs are motivated by that now, and by a certain new crushhh... but that's beside the point ;) hahaa

i dont know if i told you guys but right now, my weight is at 133.4 lbs. if you remember, i was once 142 when i first decided to get active so, in my opinion, i dont think i did half bad, hah. im also adding weight lifting and core strength training to get my abs in checkk (summer's knockin', and im dying to answer!) now, this (and my consumption of protein shakes) may add to my weight but truthfull, my weight isnt all im worried about. i mean, yeah, it's nice to go down a couple pounds, but i'd rather gain weight in muscle, be lean and toned, and lose inches around my body than be skin and bones with nothing to show except numbers on a scale. plus, being skinny doesnt always mean youre healthy so i live by that now.

ALSO, i've turned to the pescetarian lifestyle now. i enable myself to eat seafood but those are the ONLY animals i eat. sometimes i dont even eat them. just veggies, fruits, and grains. but hey, they lead to beneficial things too, eyy? lol

well, i need to shower. i'm all icky.

it was a Thursday night...

so, hey again!

its thursday night and i can't sleep because i took a 3 hour nap when i got home from school today. meaning, i probably won't be able to sleep until about 3 hours later than the usual time i sleep (9:30-10:00pm).

on top of that, i feel like a fat pig! i woke up from my nap and went straight to the kitchen and ate 2 bowls of noooodles. like ugh, i knew i shouldnt have but i swear i cant turn away from food, no matter what time it is. i hate it, i feel like shit. i think i need help, lol.

im up in my room, downloading musicc and watching "what i like about you" with Amanda Bynes. i actually like it, its from a while back but i actually just started watching. hah. i think it's a good show though, it's funny.

oh, so over the weekend i played around with my eyeshadows. i wore a greeen shirt with like reddish designs so i did a green look, of course. for background information, the shirt wasnt exactly a VIBRANT lime green color. it was kind of dull actually, like a light olivey color, i guess you could call it. i'm still a beginner so its kind of a crappy job. plus, i did it ALL with ONE 239 brush cause i don't own a blending brush. when i say all, i mean ALL. hah.

yeah so, my skin looks pretty much like crap. i'm still tryna get my whole skin care regimen on track. i'm actually looking into the home remedies stuff since i mayonnaise-up my hur once a month, already. also, my eyebrows are HORRIBLE. one side is thick, one side is thin. theyre totally completely different shapes and they upset me. every friggin day, they upset me. LOL

ANYHOW, if you're interested, here are the products i used:

Urban Decay Primer Potion
NYX jumbo eyeshadow pencil in Lemon
Coastal Scents 88 matte eyeshadow palette
Sephora mini eyeliner pencils in black
Estee Lauder Projectionist mascara

and, that's all for tonight!

more looks to come! hopefully. Lol

gooooodnight!